Vulnerability as Healer

Heart beating. Body shaking. A slight nausea in my belly and vision of the room around me turning a little bit blurry. This is what I experienced at the thought of sharing my personal experience via blog and social media, for anyone to see.

The discomfort of vulnerability is not new to me. When I first started dancing 5Rthyms and expressing what was going on in my inside through my body, it was terrifying. I was caught up in my head, worrying what others thought, and taking bathroom breaks as an escape. Similarly in one tantra workshop, a river of tears came forth and every cell in my being wanted to run and hide.

Experience has taught me that staying with vulnerability brings incredible gifts. I kept going to dance 5Rthyms, and over time the dissociation and fear in my experience started to melt. It began to give way to immense flow, pleasure and aliveness in my body. An incredible experience of being connected with my authenticity, life, and the sacred.  In the tantra workshop, being witnessed in my deep sadness allowed me to receive the care and support of the group. This taught me that it wasn’t shameful to show sadness, rather it makes me human.

Being witnessed in vulnerability allows me to realize and bring forth more of my authenticity. Through the compassionate and present eyes and ears of another, I can access hidden parts of myself and bring them to life in the world.

We each have our unique, evolving relationship to vulnerability. What does vulnerability mean to you?